Brian Balke of everdeepening responded to a recent blog post, Unhealthy Seductress Vs Empowered Sensual Woman, with some good advice. In the post, I acknowledged a certain splintering within myself due to past traumas. My goal is to achieve complete reintegration of self in order to realize wholeness, balance and harmony.
As I wrote this post, it occurred to me that I am already addressing this during my sessions with Joan Coletto, a Bodhi Spiritual Center licensed practitioner. Whenever we come across a mental or emotional block that can be linked to a specific time and place, I mentally go back to that version of myself, address her, accept her and hug her. I always tell her that she is loved and ask what she requires of me. Various mantras have developed from these sessions:
- I am living life, healthy, happy and strong.
- I am a whole, loving human being.
Brian offered a new mantra to include in my practice:
Try to send that energy back in time. This mantra has sometimes helped others: addressing your past self: “I love you. We are strong enough. Come to me.”
Following is a recording of the mantra:
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With Love,
Sherry
Community Soulwork 
Sherry:
Thanks so much for sharing your experience with your spiritual advisor, Ms. Coletto. It’s always beneficial to find that we’ve connected with wisdom from the past.
I evolved my thoughts from a reading of Judith Hermann’s Trauma and Recovery. She described how victims would flash back to their trauma in all the best moments of their lives.
Intellectually I had prepared myself for the intuition that anyone trapped by a spiritual predator has only one place to turn to: themselves in the future. We can either treat that as an invasion, which allows the predator to eat that moment, or we can focus our energy to the service of our own survival. I think that all of the mantras that you offer facilitate survival.
Personally, my intellectual understanding of the process also leads me to conclude that this reality was designed so that love works. I know that Buddhists talk about unity with oneness, but I find a certain strength in calling it by the Christian name. That makes it a relationship, and I feel less alone in the struggle.
Brian
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Hi Brian. Can you share more thoughts on ‘turning to ourselves in the future’. Is this a reference to revisioning past traumatic events?
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I mean that the person in the moment of their trauma projects themselves into the future to find strength. The “revisioning” you mention is our experience of that connection when the trauma is in the past.
My experience of time suggests that the connectedness of it is a lot more complicated than the linear progression popular in most scientific circles. As a person awed by the power of love, it seems to me that sacred moments connect the past to the future through a conduit formed of love.
Oddly, this means that the future can’t change the past because it’s already participated in its creation. I’ve had some unusual visions of people reaching back from the future to change my history. They bounce off. I’ve also had supportive people reaching forward from the past. It’s mind-numbingly beautiful.
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